Dharma Talk: Learning How to Ask by Geoffrey Shugen Arnold Sensei:
"I was looking for the net, but there wasn't one. I was looking for assurances or guarantees. I didn't have to move in; I didn't have to become a monastic. I could go along as I had been, and it would be okay. But "okay" wasn't good enough. I refused to believe that what I knew of life was all there was. And I also realized that if I chose the safe route—not to devote myself to the monastic life—then for the rest of my life there would be one question in my mind that I would carry to my grave: What if I had taken that leap? What would my life have become? I knew I couldn't live with that. I could live with my dreams and aspirations falling apart. But I couldn't live with "What if I had leapt?" That burden was just too great to bear."
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